Kody Brown saw his failed attempt at polygamy as a "tragic tragedy" that unfolded like a "Shakespearean love story."

Kody Brown is thinking back on his polygamous family's apparent abrupt death.

The 54-year-old star of Sister Wives tells PEOPLE that his future is not what he had anticipated after his four marriages ended, calling it "a major turn here, almost a U-turn."

He acknowledges, "Maybe because I haven't let go enough of the past, I'm finding it difficult to see what the future holds."

The disintegration of the Brown family accelerated in November 2021 following Christine Brown's announcement that she had split from Kody after almost 26 years of marriage. 

Within two months of each other's confirmation, Janelle Brown, Kody's second wife, and Meri Brown, Kody's first wife, acknowledged their split a year later. 

(Robyn Brown, Kody's fourth wife, has stuck by him while they have made the often awkward adjustment into a monogamous marriage.)

The TLC patriarch says he experienced "a lot of heartbreak" when his marriages abruptly collapsed since he had previously "loved" the life he was creating with his ex-partners. 

"In the end, I felt like I was the one making all the complaints, and that's what made me cynical," he recalls, adding that "it felt like everybody else was unhappy." I cherished [our circumstances]. Simply said, it didn't seem like everyone else did.

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